Friday, July 13, 2012

Goodbye, Peapod.

A week ago I discovered that one of my best friends, Stephanie, passed away. About a month ago she had surgery to remove her gallbladder. On Thursday night last week, she was taken to the ER for extreme abdominal pains. The doctors said she had pancreatitis, and on Friday last week they sent her to a Fresno hospital for surgery. Less than 24 hours after she had gone to the ER on Thursday, she passed away. They discovered she had an overwhelming infection in her abdomen. Stephanie and I met via work, this September would have been four years ago. We bonded almost immediately, even though she was my supervisor at the time. For some reason, that didn't matter, and nothing about Stephanie felt overwhelming. When I was her relief at 10pm, sometimes she'd end up staying until 11pm or even midnight, just talking about various things going on in our lives...and if she was my relief in the morning, I would find myself staying until 9:30am, if residents weren't awake, just so we could see each other for a bit. Like I had said to her before, when I met Stephanie, I didn't meet a boss or even a coworker, I'd met a friend...and after a while it wasn't even that I met a friend, I met a soul sister. Until the day she died, we had similar experiences in our lives, from our relationships with our siblings to our parents, to bullying experiences, and so on. We had started trying to put together a non-profit organization called One Less Inc., to combat bullying and become a safe haven for children who are victims of bullying, and to offer support and understanding to their parents as well. When we would talk about our dreams for One Less Inc. it's like she would start a sentence and I would finish it, or vice versa. There was very little we had differing views on... In fact, the only thing I can think of is our religious affiliations--she was very Christian, and me being an extremely laid back Atheist. It didn't matter. We would talk about religion and God sometimes, and never did she make me feel awkward or uncomfortable. I'm not the type of Atheist that will ever tell you your beliefs are wrong, and of course, I never did that to Stephanie, either. We took each other as we were. It didn't matter that we didn't see eye to eye on one thing, because we saw eye to eye on everything else. But we were so much alike that we said we were two peas in a pod...her nickname from me was Peapod, and I was Peabody. There have been very few instances in my life that I'd met someone that just loved and accepted me for everything I am and ever will be... Standing in my corner rooting me on, cheering for me to do well, no matter what I set my eye on as a goal. Stephanie was one of those people. No matter what I said I wanted to do, she was always there to give love, support, and any kind of guidance she might have been able to give. I wish that everyone has the luck to find someone like this in their lives, no matter how long the time. She helped me gain back a part of my spirit that I thought had been long gone for years. In less than 11 hours, we'll be laying her to rest. The day I found out, I was a wreck. The last few days I'd been better, but still not perfect... And I know in 11 hours I'll be a blubbering mess again. I'm still in a state of shock and disbelief...

Tuesday, June 12, 2012

Since my last post

Here's a chart representing my weight loss since my last post. Sure, it ended up peaking again at 259.2, but the point is that it's back down to 242.2 at the moment. I still have a way to go, but I've been trying to keep motivated on losing that weight. Not much has happened since my last post, except this:

John asked me to marry him on our one year anniversary, June 2nd. I came home from work in the morning to this waiting for me on our kitchen table. Of course, I said yes! I'm really excited about all of the planning, and our tentative date is set for April 20th. We figure that it's far enough away that we can fine tune it in a few months, but we know we want to have it sometime in mid-to-late April. We're going to get a City Pass for our honeymoon, to Southern California (3 days at Disneyland, 1 at Universal Studios, 1 at Sea World). We're really excited about that! We LOVE Disneyland! I need to keep updating this blog, but I feel like I forget about it too easily because I don't get much feedback on my posts. But I'll try to make weekly posts from this point on!

Wednesday, February 1, 2012


It's only temporary. Six pounds up from my lowest in 2011. The last two months of the year are chaos for the average person anyway, but throw seasonal depression and you've got a double whammy.
The good news is that it has already started curving back down.

2012 is the year that I will get below 200! I haven't been below 200 since I was probably 15? Maybe even 14 or 13... I really don't remember. That's sad, right? I guess it doesn't really matter, because this year I plan to be at a much healthier weight by the time the winter months roll back around again. I'm tired of being overweight, winded, and not being able to wear cute clothes because I can't fit in them (or I have to pay a lot of money to get something in "my size").

It will be nice to one day be able to buy clothes that aren't in the "plus size" section at Target. I look forward to that happening.

One step at a time, Mil. One step at a time.

Monday, January 30, 2012

It's been nearly forever since my last update!

A lot of things have changed while some things have changed the same. To catch you up to speed:

-I lost a bit of weight, but then I got a cold, we went to Disneyland, came back, John got a cold, I got another cold, so did John, then I got Diverticulitis again (third time in 10 years). We slacked big time, and I packed back on 8.4 pounds. Since then though, I dropped another 3 pounds. So presently I'm at 253. I have a goal to get below 200, and then I'll see what I feel like doing after that. I can't remember the last time I was under 200. I was probably 15.
-I've gone gluten free!
-John and I have been together 8 months on the 2nd! He is absolutely amazing and I love him more and more every day! He gives me so many reasons to smile and laugh. I love my life, especially my life with him.
-I've decided that once I'm done paying off my credit card and student loan, I will be looking into going to school to become an LVN. When I finish the LVN program, I will do an RN bridge program.
-One of my best friends, Stephanie, and I are trying to start up our own non-profit organization to help kids who are victims of bullying. Right now we're still waiting to hear from the state if we have their permission to become a "business." After that we will get our business license and start looking for all of our grants and perform fundraisers, too.

Hopefully I'll be back into a somewhat normal pattern of updating this blog, but we'll see!!