Monday, June 29, 2009

And then there was one.

I got a message from Steve just a short while ago about how his ex-girlfriend asked him to give her a second chance. He said he felt bad, because he thought I was going to be upset. I'm a little bummed, but not a lot. I understand that sometimes you've just got to go where your heart is leading you, and I know that he would be kicking himself in the future if he didn't at least try to mend things with his ex. I told him I'd still like to stay friends because I didn't see why we couldn't still be friends. He's a nice funny guy, and there's not really that many of them around that seem to understand my sense of humor.

This however makes me feel like a little bit of a better person. Why? Because I was starting to like both Steve and Michael. I was interested in both pretty equally. I was starting to like Michael more over the last few days but I began to feel like that was unfair because I hadn't even met him in person yet. So anyway now that Steve is out of the picture, this allows me to breathe a sigh of relief that I will no longer feel like a bad person for liking two guys at once (which I haven't done since about the 6th grade...oh, Ricky Miguel and Raymond Reyes! Raymond had me when he fell in the stink weed at Sonora. Think I'm joking? Oh how I wish I were. lol!). The stress that this brought on, even if it was pretty minor, was enough that I've decided to only get to know one guy at a time, regardless of whether or not I've met him online (I also don't much care for the judgmental comments and looks I've gotten regarding this concept).

So I'm still on for seeing Michael Monday night to see Transformers 2 at 5. And I'm very much looking forward to it.

Saturday, June 27, 2009


As of right now I have it narrowed down to two guys, Steve and Michael. I was supposed to go see a movie with Michael tonight but he had to cancel on me. I figured to be fair, I should wait until I meet Michael to make a decision on who I'd like to spend more time with to get to know better, but Steve is kind of inching him out.
I think this is a good thing, but I'm not sure?

Anyhow, I work tonight at 1:30 AM, so I'm going to get some rest!

Friday, June 26, 2009


Well the potential date with Dan was over before it could ever even take place. What it boiled down to was trust issues. I couldn't really trust that he was real (this was the first time in all of my years of meeting people online that I had serious issues with believing that someone I met online wasn't who they really said they were), and he has trust issues with meeting people online, period.

However, good news is that tomorrow night before work I've got a date with Michael to go see Transformers! I'm looking forward to it!

It's definitely different to be dating anyone at all, period. Just when I decided to give up, and I signed back up on OkCupid for the laughs that would no doubt come, I've got two guys interested in me. It's really truly strange how that stuff works out.

Wednesday, June 24, 2009

Dating sites and other things

I haven't really updated in a while because nothing major has been going on. Let's see, what has been going on?

-I got turned down for health insurance because I'm 42 pounds over the max they will allow to insure. Never mind the fact that I've lost 24 pounds since October and I'm still working hard to shed another 90, they won't insure me unless I'm below 206. I'm hoping that I'll be able to hit that mark within 4 months. I'm going to be becoming even more strict with the foods I eat and try to make it to the gym no less than 3 days a week.
-I joined eHarmony on a whim, and the site is truly awful. I paid $39 for 3 months of service (not $39 a month, $39 for 3 months together), they were running a special and they happened to email me with this information when I had decided to give up on the site. I met one guy on there and we talked for about a day after he sent me something like 70+ text messages while I was at one of Christian's (nephew) baseball games. A bit much, but whatever. You live, you learn. This guy had told me he had no desire to ever get married again, being divorced. The other major bombshell he dropped on me was "oh by the way, I cheated on my last serious girlfriend." So after we got off the phone that night, I logged onto eHarmony and wrote him to politely tell him I had no interest in a romantic future with him. I'd be constantly worried he was cheating on me.
-This prompted me to sign back up on another dating site named OkCupid, mostly for laughs because a lot of users on there are highly amusing (by that I mean ridiculous). I've been on and off this site since I was 18 years old, back when it was called "SparkMatch." The site is free, so what do I have to lose, right? So far I've gone on one date (Steve), I was supposed to have another tonight but the guy had to cancel and rescheduled for Tuesday (Dan, and I'm okay with that, he's from San Francisco!), may have another date getting lined up (Eddie), and potentially another date...but that will probably just be to see Transformers 2 (Michael). All 4 guys seem interesting enough, and meeting people online, you have to meet them offline to understand if there's any actual chemistry in person. Normally I wouldn't be one to date multiple guys at a time, but in order to know if there's chemistry, you HAVE to meet in person! I'm the most interested in Dan despite the distance, and second place is tied with Steve and Michael. We'll see how all of that goes. A quick bit of info on each? Sure!
--Dan: 29, British, Lawyer, San Francisco, 6'3".
--Steve: 24, White, Pelco, Madera Ranchos, 6'3".
--Eddie: 22, Black, CSUF credential program student, Clovis, 6'3".
--Michael: 23, Chinese, CSUF Psychology student, retail, Fresno, 5'6".

Let's see, what else has been going on?
Oh, Mom discovered my ethnic make-up:
50% Portuguese
25% Italian
11.71875% German
10.9375% English
1.5875% Irish
.78125% Scottish

Awesome, right? lol I never expected the Irish or the Scottish!

A couple of other minor things:
-I've fallen in love with my kickboxing class but haven't gone in a week.
-Won't be joining roller derby until I get health insurance, but I might start practicing skating a little on the sidewalks and such around my Mom and Dad's house.
-I tried on a bunch of my older clothes from when I was a size 18, and even though I'm about 20 pounds heavier than I was the last time I was a size 18, I can fit into them already. This is a good sign!

And now I leave you with a picture of my niece, Madison's super cute profile. She has her mom's adorable nose!

Friday, June 5, 2009


I hacked my hair off on the 1st, and the compliments haven't ceased yet.

Thursday, June 4, 2009


I took my camera around with me today, I've been trying to do this more often because I love taking pictures. Anyhow, I only took pictures at Christian's game and then some pictures at Curt and Jamie's with Austin and Madison. So here's the pictures I liked the best.